Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Time for an Adventure

Oh wow, I almost forgot. I was actually thinking that something outside myself would make me feel whole, content, happy. Maybe a boyfriend would do it, or a trip to another continent for a while.

How do we find the discernment of knowing when we are escaping and knowing when we are just choosing a thought or an action that makes us feel better? How do we know that feeling amazing is actually what we should be reaching for at all times? How do we get to that pure and true divine guidance so that we are clear on what is the highest choice?

Sometimes the holidays can shrink me to my lowest common denominator. I seem to land in the densest version of myself, kind of believing what I hear, think and see instead of what I know, feel and align with. I start living in the world instead of creating the world moment to moment.

Well, whether I get on a plane and leave or not, it is still time for an adventure, both inner and outer.

Monday, December 21, 2009

Happiness is Nothing but Total Relaxation

These words were written on my tea bag this morning and really caught my attention. I have been noticing lately how I feel the minute I wake up in the morning before I dial in to this time/space reality. I remember many mornings waking up with a general excitement; about nothing in particular but just an excitement towards life. Today I woke up with that familiar sense of subtle anxiety. I could describe it as a thin film of discontent or worry about nothing in particular: free-floating anxiety lite. Where does that come from? Why do I have it on some mornings and not on others?
"Happiness is total relaxation" implies that all is well within our world. So how do we get to that state as quickly as possible? As I drink my tea steeping in this wisdom, I remember.
It is through gratitude. I cannot be grateful without at least some things being well. So I am going to do what I have done so many times before and that is to make a list of 100 things I am grateful for. I know through experience that it is impossible to get to the bottom of the list without the fog of discontent lifting. Here I go...

Sunday, December 6, 2009

Are You Selfish Enough?

If we were standing in your physical shoes, that would be our dominant quest: Entertaining Yourself, pleasing Yourself, connecting with Yourself, being Yourself, enjoying Yourself, loving Yourself. Some say, "Well, Abraham you teach selfishness. And we say, yes we do, yes we do, yes we do, because unless you are selfish enough to reach for that connection, you don't have anything to give anyone, anyway. And when you are selfish enough to make that connection -- you have an enormous gift that you give everywhere you are.
--- Abraham

Thursday, December 3, 2009

Gotta Have Me Some Spice

My favorite kind of love affair:

Out beyond ideas of wrongdoing and rightdoing,
there is field. I’ll meet you there.

When the soul lies down in that grass,
the world is too full to talk about.
Ideas, language, even the phrase each other
doesn’t make any sense.

~ Rumi

Yes! I know this feeling and I live for it...but am I able to stay in this feeling? No. And if this is my favorite love affair, why do I still reach for those passionate, knuckle-biting, dysfunctional, break-up-to-make-up relationships?

Because it makes life spicy and we are here for the full human experience. Who wants the same flavor everyday?