But Am I Living It?

As I watch my mind and my experience do all the human things, from the lowest to the highest, I wonder: When am I not living my sacredness? The only answer I have is: Never. It's impossible to not be the sacred beings we are. The truth is, I am just having the human experience in all of its flavors from the sublime to the low. And THIS AWARENESS is how I love myself.

Taking Out the Trash

After the full moon of July 26th, everything seems to have imploded. The word from “on high” was that some star gates opened up, taking us all to a new level of.....well, for me, intolerance. I noticed that everything that needed to come up and be cleared presented itself. Healing old and deep wounds with partners, being shown what was not in my highest interest and the feeling that I needed to wipe the slate clean were all loudly present. General mayhem ensued. Every relationship seem to need an upgrade, starting with myself. The difficulty was not in taking responsibility for my part but for clearly communicating that which was exposed, feeling the hurt in myself and others and then allowing for a new way. There were sensitive and potent mixtures that needed to be brewed with the right amounts of action, honesty and fearless heart communication. There is beauty in breakdown.

Today is the solar eclipse and the new moon. So equally intense to the disrupting and shattering full moon is the magically powered new beginning that this space has created. I even cleaned out my car, my purse and my room. Hello new world! I am deeming bright, shiny newness to all aspects of this existence. Let the reorganized and upgraded begin along with all of the joyous surprises awaiting, beyond our wildest imaginations. My mantra:

Let it be a surprise!

Bright and shiny love to all

The Universal DJ

The romance with this process started a few days ago. I blocked out the world and completely plugged into music. I hit "shuffle" on my iTunes so that the Universal DJ could do its thing and play songs that matched the vibration I was in - profound love, bliss, private revolution and sacred soulfulness. With this soundtrack of songs like "War" by Lennon or "Early in the Morning" by Doyle Bramhall II, I was no longer an appreciator of deeply connected music, I was an extension, an amplification of this holy vibration.
The playlist kept getting better as the day went on, taking me deeper and deeper. Wrapped up or encoded in this music is every human emotion, every heart-quaking desire, every bone-splitting pain, every love-tendered salve; in other words, the full human experience.
Music is at the heart of inspiration. If I were to say that it is everything I would not be far from the truth. It is the cosmic language. Everything is just vibration and music is vibration. It moves us and never fails to inspire us. Vibration is the future of all healing and all science. Sometimes when I am deep in the flow, I cannot even listen to music. It touches me too deeply and I just cry.
There is new music to be made to keep us all matched up together in this vintage sensuous dimension known as Planet Earth and the full-on human journey.

Identity Wipe

It’s official.

I know nothing. The director of the grand cinema of my life has decided to use an old film technique of making everything on the screen blur into a swirling dissolve. Usually this technique is used in old films to express loss of memory or going somewhere to a far, far away place. The accompanying music is usually a repeated harp strum.

Everything I thought no longer applies about my life, my future or my present. The only thing I can do now is get comfortable living in the swirling vortex of the BLUR. Surely a new scene will appear on the screen, it always does, and beyond my wildest imagination.

I am Deep Down the Road of "When"

I have been feeling something amazing is going to happen to me. I’m not alone in this feeling, so many are feeling this right now. I feel it down in my bones. It is with certainty that I feel that which I most desire moving towards me. Am I celebrating?

No. Being excited to the core about what is coming, I have entered into the WHEN. My mind cannot stop focusing on how wonderful it will be, WHEN it happens. So here is the tricky part. We are supposed to stay in the vibration of that which we most desire. However, there is a fine line of staying in the vibration and in so aligning with that, we lose the NOW. The NOW begins to pale in comparison to that which we know is coming.

Out of all my years of meditation and devotion to the NOW, which is the only access point to freedom, I am right back to finding the joy in the present moment. So in this full human experience, I am back on the incredible journey to NOW.

Why do we ask people what they think?

"Your joy factor will remain constant as you are continually refining your ideas of what you want, and that's why it is so important for you to get everybody else out of the equation. They've got their own game going on; they don't understand your game. Give them a break; stop asking them what they think. Start paying attention to how you feel. Joy will be yours immediately, and everything else that you have ever thought would make you happy, will start flowing, seemingly effortlessly, into your experience."--- Abraham

Time for an Adventure

Oh wow, I almost forgot. I was actually thinking that something outside myself would make me feel whole, content, happy. Maybe a boyfriend would do it, or a trip to another continent for a while.

How do we find the discernment of knowing when we are escaping and knowing when we are just choosing a thought or an action that makes us feel better? How do we know that feeling amazing is actually what we should be reaching for at all times? How do we get to that pure and true divine guidance so that we are clear on what is the highest choice?

Sometimes the holidays can shrink me to my lowest common denominator. I seem to land in the densest version of myself, kind of believing what I hear, think and see instead of what I know, feel and align with. I start living in the world instead of creating the world moment to moment.

Well, whether I get on a plane and leave or not, it is still time for an adventure, both inner and outer.