I am Deep Down the Road of "When"

I have been feeling something amazing is going to happen to me. I’m not alone in this feeling, so many are feeling this right now. I feel it down in my bones. It is with certainty that I feel that which I most desire moving towards me. Am I celebrating?

No. Being excited to the core about what is coming, I have entered into the WHEN. My mind cannot stop focusing on how wonderful it will be, WHEN it happens. So here is the tricky part. We are supposed to stay in the vibration of that which we most desire. However, there is a fine line of staying in the vibration and in so aligning with that, we lose the NOW. The NOW begins to pale in comparison to that which we know is coming.

Out of all my years of meditation and devotion to the NOW, which is the only access point to freedom, I am right back to finding the joy in the present moment. So in this full human experience, I am back on the incredible journey to NOW.

Why do we ask people what they think?

"Your joy factor will remain constant as you are continually refining your ideas of what you want, and that's why it is so important for you to get everybody else out of the equation. They've got their own game going on; they don't understand your game. Give them a break; stop asking them what they think. Start paying attention to how you feel. Joy will be yours immediately, and everything else that you have ever thought would make you happy, will start flowing, seemingly effortlessly, into your experience."--- Abraham

Time for an Adventure

Oh wow, I almost forgot. I was actually thinking that something outside myself would make me feel whole, content, happy. Maybe a boyfriend would do it, or a trip to another continent for a while.

How do we find the discernment of knowing when we are escaping and knowing when we are just choosing a thought or an action that makes us feel better? How do we know that feeling amazing is actually what we should be reaching for at all times? How do we get to that pure and true divine guidance so that we are clear on what is the highest choice?

Sometimes the holidays can shrink me to my lowest common denominator. I seem to land in the densest version of myself, kind of believing what I hear, think and see instead of what I know, feel and align with. I start living in the world instead of creating the world moment to moment.

Well, whether I get on a plane and leave or not, it is still time for an adventure, both inner and outer.

Happiness is Nothing but Total Relaxation

These words were written on my tea bag this morning and really caught my attention. I have been noticing lately how I feel the minute I wake up in the morning before I dial in to this time/space reality. I remember many mornings waking up with a general excitement; about nothing in particular but just an excitement towards life. Today I woke up with that familiar sense of subtle anxiety. I could describe it as a thin film of discontent or worry about nothing in particular: free-floating anxiety lite. Where does that come from? Why do I have it on some mornings and not on others?
"Happiness is total relaxation" implies that all is well within our world. So how do we get to that state as quickly as possible? As I drink my tea steeping in this wisdom, I remember.
It is through gratitude. I cannot be grateful without at least some things being well. So I am going to do what I have done so many times before and that is to make a list of 100 things I am grateful for. I know through experience that it is impossible to get to the bottom of the list without the fog of discontent lifting. Here I go...

Are You Selfish Enough?

If we were standing in your physical shoes, that would be our dominant quest: Entertaining Yourself, pleasing Yourself, connecting with Yourself, being Yourself, enjoying Yourself, loving Yourself. Some say, "Well, Abraham you teach selfishness. And we say, yes we do, yes we do, yes we do, because unless you are selfish enough to reach for that connection, you don't have anything to give anyone, anyway. And when you are selfish enough to make that connection -- you have an enormous gift that you give everywhere you are.
--- Abraham

Gotta Have Me Some Spice

My favorite kind of love affair:

Out beyond ideas of wrongdoing and rightdoing,
there is field. I’ll meet you there.

When the soul lies down in that grass,
the world is too full to talk about.
Ideas, language, even the phrase each other
doesn’t make any sense.

~ Rumi

Yes! I know this feeling and I live for it...but am I able to stay in this feeling? No. And if this is my favorite love affair, why do I still reach for those passionate, knuckle-biting, dysfunctional, break-up-to-make-up relationships?

Because it makes life spicy and we are here for the full human experience. Who wants the same flavor everyday?

Killing the Guru, Again

Forever, there have been two approaches to God. The first is organized religion which states that you can only have a connection to God through us, the Church. This is the traditional model of looking outside ourselves for “the way.” And those that show the way are the priests, rabbais, pastors, ministers and some gurus. The second is the Gnostic approach which states that we all have our own direct connection to God and that we are already divine ourselves. Those that show the way here are the ones that help you to find God within and may be any type of guide or teacher.
According to a survey by Pollster Lou Harris last year, 97% of the American people say they believe in God. Of this majority of Americans, there are two manners in which they will seek God and that is either through organized religion or through the self.
In the New Paradigm we have now entered, more and more people are waking up to the truth within. In fact that is what the New Paradigm is all about: living our lives as the divine beings we are and perceiving the world around us a reflection of this divinity. It is a new territory we have entered, the Aquarian Age where Planet Earth is assisting us to connect to God directly.
The world doesn’t need another spiritual know-it-all in this New Paradigm. I know this because I have spent my life looking for the one person or “way” who could take me to enlightenment. And what did I find? That we are all having a human experience and no one in a human body is immune from this.

Do we need help finding the guru within? Absolutely! Everyone including spiritual teachers needs reminders and inspiration from time to time. We are all here having a human experience and it wouldn’t be a human experience without the experience of our humanness, which means feeling the full range of human emotions.
The self-help industry is an $11 billion dollar industry. People are looking for ways to transform themselves and their lives. That is why it is called “self” help because people want to help themselves. I feel the self-help industry gets a bad rap. In fact there is a TV show in development about children raised on a diet of self-help books. Granted, many self-help books grasp at straws and are either incomplete or just don’t work.
So why are so many people writing these self-help books? Because so many people are wanting to know how to help themselves. And there are many ways to reach God and our divine selves so there is room for many voices. Is that a bad thing? No! We may have to hear it 50 different times, 50 different ways, by 50 different voices until one day, something clicks. We are all looking for our unique blueprint, our unique path, our unique contributions and our unique gift to share. We don’t know exactly what will reach out and touch us at what time.
The guru is being replaced by the inner guru and the new “spiritual teacher” is the one who makes us feel better; about being human, about our lives, about loving ourselves and about loving what is. The new teacher is the one who teaches that we are all just divine beings having this human experience and the way to divinity is by embracing this experience and all of it’s flavors.

The new teacher is directly connecting us to God, not to him or her.

The new teacher teaches that desire is in fact a divine path and that feeling good is our birthright. We shouldn’t have to work so hard to find our divinity as it is right under our noses. But we need permission. Permission to go for what we really want and permission to know that our desires are divine information. Pure and simple.
And why shouldn’t there be joy along the way, as well as pleasure, delight, play, sensuality and excitement? Right now in my life, I want to go to the bookstore and get something juicy so I don’t have to work so hard. I want chocolate covered sushi; the protein and the dessert together, jet fuel with a cherry on top. I want my new spiritual meal to be packed with potency, fun, inspiration, and a little danger; something I can relate to and something that interests me! I have read many of the greats and loved them as each one has rocked my world. There is always a time and a place in someones life to deepen ones knowledge and faith through the study of spiritual teachings and scriptures and mine has lasted for ten years. These are texts that transmit “living truth;” living texts that eternally contain the highest vibration of truth. Some of my favorites are Eckart Tolles’s “The Power of Now,” Yogananda’s “Autobiography of a Yogi,” the ecstatic poetry of Rumi and anything by Osho.
So why am I not reaching for those classic texts at night? It’s because they feel SPIRITUAL. Being “spiritual” is like a cat trying to be a cat; he already is that. Why would he try and become something that he already is? That’s silly. Yet we as spiritual beings are “wanting” to become more spiritual. Actually it’s the other way around. We as spiritual beings should be wanting to become more human. That is what this book is about; giving ourselves permission to become more human. To fully embrace our divinity through our humanness. Otherwise, why are here in a physical body?
I hear people all the time saying that they feel unfulfilled and want to get more “spiritual.” So they do what we are all trained to do: look outside ourselves and our own experiences. The truth is that it is just ourselves we are out of touch with. Our teachers need to help us connect to God by ourselves. Anything other than that, where we give up our power to another person is a betrayal of self. This book is all about returning to the innocent, heart-desire driven, child-like approach to life.
I want a new take on living a ravishingly lush and profound life that embraces not “trying” to be spiritual and not looking or behaving like I am spiritual.
I never really thought spirituality would go out of style because our true nature transcends any kind of style. But the way we approach it as we grow and transform, changes flavors from time to time. Sometimes we are devout and reverent and sometimes we are craving the colorful, lusty world. It just seems like the times right now are all about reaching the sacred through the human buffet.